urban schizophrenia

Feeling : lonely
Listening to : tool - stinkfist

sometimes you feel so alone.... your surrounded by people but you still feel lonely right?... thats how i feel right now... sometimes i really wish i had MPD so that i could atleast have somebody to talk to and be with.... everybody is so preoccupied with whatever it is that they are doing that nobody connects with anybody else on a personal level... its the over-saturation of society with whats unnecessary thats leading to the collapse of the basic foundations of our civilization... nobody takes part in a proper dialogue with another anymore... plato was right when he said that the only way forward for our civilization is only through proper dialogue with the self and with the other... its all business nowadays... no feelings involved... no true connectivity between ppl... ppl just stay glued to the tv and dont even bother to find out whats wrong with the person sitting next to them... and then there are those ppl who wanna try something new but are held back by restraints placed on them by society... you are just filled with so much shit thats shoved down our throats that we can do nothing but get oversaturated with all the shitty propoganda and crap that they want us to swallow... its like a cycle..... ppl eat shit, speak shit, eat shit, speak shit... it goes on and on until some of us breakdown and stop the whole thing... maynard says it best in "stinkfist"-

"Something kinda sad about
The way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?

How can it mean anything to me
If I really don’t feel anything at all?

I’ll keep digging till,
I feel something.

Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. turn around and take my hand."

everything is so much larger than life that it is un-accessible by most... and by keeping everything out of reach of everyone the few who can control all... human nature sucks. period.