"The addiction of duplicities."

sound : the cure - disintegration

-==Disintegration==-

oh i miss the kiss of treachery
the shameless kiss of vanity
the soft and the black and the velvety
up tight against the side of me
and mouth and eyes and heart all bleed
and run in thickening streams of greed
as bit by bit it starts the need
to just let go my party piece...

oh i miss the kiss of treachery
the aching kiss before i feed
the stench of a love for a younger meat
and the sound that it makes when it cuts in deep
the holding up on bended knees
the addiction of duplicities
as bit by bit it starts the need to
just let go my party piece...

but i never said i would stay to the end
so i leave you with babies and hoping for frequency
screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy
screaming me over and over and over
i leave you with photographs and pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery
songs about happiness murmured in dreams
when the both of us knew how the ending would be...

so it's all come back round to breaking apart again
breaking apart like i'm made up of glass again
making it up behind my back again
holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
holding it up behind my head again
cut in deep to the heart of the bone again
round and round and round and it's coming apart again
over and over and over...

now that i know that i'm breaking to pieces
i'll pull out my heart and i'll feed it to anyone
crying for sympathy,
crocodiles cry for the love of the crowd
and the three cheers from everyone
dropping through sky
through the glass of the roof
through the roof of your mouth
through the mouth of your eye
through the eye of the needle
it's easier for me to get closer to heaven
than ever feel whole again...

i never said i would stay to the end
i knew i would leave you with babies and everything
screaming like this in the whole of sincerity
screaming me over and over and over
i leave you with photographs and pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet and stains on the memory
songs about happiness murmured in dreams
when the both of us knew how the end always is...

i just cant stop listening to this song... its so... true!.... robert smith is a lyrical
genius... my day's been horrible... woke up dreaming about super mario, read a little "hannibal" and felt kinda calmed out but this market research thing that im doing right now is really messed up... we're supposed to get people to go to the lipton office to be interviewed and shit like that... nobody came on time and the whole damn thing was a fucking flop... balls... i dont want to think about it...

im bored... by bored i dont mean "bored" bored... i mean tired... im tired of my life not moving... im tired of being the only one... im tired of being alone and fatigued... im tired of it all... i hate people, i hate my existence, i hate everything about me... what exactly am i?... right now... im a leech... all i do is suck outta my folks and exist... i dont live... i miss life...

ive been in this screwed up mood for the past few days... nothing i do cheers me up... i cant even think properly anymore...hallelujah for small blessings... obsession confession by slash just started playing right now... actually im kinda sane now thanks to my conversation to aj... thank god she listens otherwise id be totally screwed up by now...

THANKS AJ! You're an angel (or should i say a "blunt angle"???)

peacerespectempathy