this is what happens when you force somebody to wake up at the most un-god-dudely hours to go to church... i wore my t-shirt upside down and i didn't realise it till the ending of mass... and the mass was looooooong!... and i dont mean just long i mean fucking forever man... the priest dragged everything... he sang the mass and it didnt even sound melodious or anything... and the songs... "ouch baby! very ouch!"... there was this guy who sang like a dying jack-ass... literally... he was braying like his life depended on it... i know i can't sing but hey... i could sing a hindi song and make it sound better than that guy singing his hymn.... man....
why did i have to go?... cos my grandma would have a coronary if she were to know that i don't have faith... these people are so lost in their tiny little worlds that they don't realise that there are ways of living unlike theirs...
the place is beautiful, no doubt about that... today, i took a walk along the river bank and sat down at a bunch of stairs... i put my feet into the water and sat there for like a half hour just thinking and looking around... it felt real nice... all it lacked was some ambient music.... i miss music... i plan on frequenting the spot... atleast there i get some microbial amount of privacy....
my plan to teach myself metallica's "nothing else matters" has been put on hold for a while... i don't have the album version and i dont have anyplace to listen to and play the song.... and not to forget, o privacy what-so ever.... i got my cousins over... tres annoyeux!.... i can't even play guitar anymore... and if i try, they come and start staring... agreed that's normal behaviour but hey.... i need my "alone time"....
for dumping my "nothing else matters" project i plan on taking on a new one... i plan on trying to train the mongrel thats tied up near the chicken coop.... it's the most chicken-hearted dog in the world... not to mention lazy.... the thing hates to move off it's place... and it shies away from people... everybody here calls it just "patti" but i heard mariam aunty named in Kaiser... a strong german tough dog name for this worm of a mongrel... how ironic.... it's still scared of me... but i guess i can make it get over that (i think its because i growled at it when it barked at me... hmm...) i plan on removing the ticks sticking to it's left ear, thereby getting into its good books as a good human (how rare is that?... a good human) who is also the leader of the pack... i guess the latter is already true because it shoves it's tail between it's legs and flattens it's ears each time i go near it.... give me time... i can make a respectable mongrel out of it yet....
there's two good things about kerala though... firstly, i feel kinda inspired... maybe it's the greenery... maybe it's all the thinking i've been able to do when i go for my walks... but i feel inspired... but the problem is that i do not have enough privacy for creation... i don't like having people looking over my shoulder all the time... makes me feel claustrophobic.... right now i'm lucky.. everybody's gone for a wedding (yuck!) and my cousins have gone for a movie... it's just my aunt (asleep), akshay (watching tv... he respects my privacy) and i.... secondly, i'm watching "that '70s show" daily"... not having sta world in jeddah i hadn't watched it i months... now i watch it daily...
Hyde:
"Guys, you know what God's greatest creation is?
... Boobs man!"
Fez:
"Yeah...heh heh heh
And then God said,
"Let there be boobs!"
And it was good"
heh heh heh.... hilarious stuff...
i'm thinking of going to the city to get myself a book... something good... a thinker... and then, i go to my spot on the river bank and read....
that's a good idea...
peacerespectempathy
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