A reading from the blog of The Scarred Philosopher, entry number 89...

sound : velvet revolver - fall to pieces

-==Fall To Pieces==-

It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling...

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

do you know how much this sucks?... i type out this huge entry and just before i press the publish button the pc crashes... how the fuck am i gonna type out the whole thing again?... i can really relate to this song... i really feel like im falling at times... i just wish i can get back up like how scott weiland has....

went to Jarir to get my books for GRE and to hopefully ogle at the iPOD......... the iPOD was already sold out and they were waiting for the next shipment... about the books for the exam... i didnt get any... though i'd do some more research and see which book i would be better off with... plus since i had some cash i thought i'd get myself some books to read... i wasnt in the mood for novels so i thought i'd get myself something good... i had planned on getting myself Plato's "The Republic" and Jean Baudrillard's "Simulacra and Simulations"... i asked the guy at the counter and i had to help him type simulacra... when you work in a bookstore and especially if you are planning to stay at the book section you have to have a wide range of words in your vocabulary... forget it if you're a douche-bag... well it turns out both books are not available here... most probably banned... just like most other things that help improve your brain... what the fuck is wrong with these people?... why ban any and everything that does not swing to the off-beat tune of religion?... their religion, our religion, my religion whats the difference?... im a good person who follows the rules of your country... i wear clothes before i get out of the house, i do not go around killing people, i do not proclaim myself as being superior (i just pick on and stress on the manners of all those i see), i follow the rules... all i ask for are a few books and some small freedoms...

these jokers have a compulsive disorder... obsessive, compulsive banning... anything new is banned be it technology, literatureor fashion... anything... its all banned... what do they achive by banning something?... absolutely nothing... all banned objects thrive on the black market... you get the latest movies the week after its premier... anything... people sell tons of porn... ganja and hashish are available in every corner of the city... booze is all over the place... ehats the use of banning everything huh?... when camera enabled mobile fones first came out there was this big hue and cry saying that according to the rules of islam photography is haram (un-holy) and that the fones should be banned... the muttawa squad went on overdrive and started confiscationg the before mentioned fones... customs officials confiscated (and presumably kept the fones for themselves)... women started beating each other up if their photographs were taken at weddings... the whole country goes to a state of total chaos just because the camera fone is not mentioned in the qoran... so what if its not mentioned in your holy books?... these books were written more than a millenia (1400 yrs ago to be precise) ago... how the fuck were those people supposed to know what kind of rules they should apply to camera fones?... the thing was being sold like crazy on the black market... plus each and everry new model has a camera on it... what did these morons think they were gonna do?.. bann all new fones in the country?.. last week they un-banned camera fones saying that it was legal if "used morally"... let me give you another fine example of their idioticism... satellite dishes... as of last week they are still officially banned in this country... they claimed that it was a mean for the "zionist devils to propogate their evil" into their pious hearts... now how dumb can you get?... anything slightly intimidating to these retards instantly become "servants of satan" or "the works of the pagans/zionists/christians/hindus" or even "the devil in disguise"... how fucked up and insecure can you get?...

i really dont get all this hype that every religion has on their holy books... agreed the stories are kinda fun to read (moses rules!!)... but hey... they were all written by people... not god... people... and if you truly believe that god wrote your holy books then stop reading my blog and go somewhere else... i dont care how many of you get insulted by my entry today, im just putting forth my beliefs into a medium of free speech... think about it... all of it (the bible, the qoran, the gita, all of it) were written by people... some guy wrote your holy book dude... do you get the message?... what if they're just some story that somebody wrote for entertainment and after all these years the truth is lost to us... we as humans would be the biggest fools in the universe... imagine this... in another two thousand years i believe that if we as humans do not start to think as a species we'd have new religions like "Potterism" (that already exists doesnt it?) and "Ringians"... lets take "Potterism"... they worship harry... an orphaned being with magical powers who eventually defeats the evil that plagues his world... how much more perfect can it get?... theres tragidy (him being orphaned), magical powers, and maybe even martyrdom (thats only if the rumors are true)... an ideal candidate for leading a religion... all he has to do now is to get hermione to was his feet and dry it off with her hair... heh heh heh... now the "Ringians"... they worship the weakest of the underdogs (Frodo) who sets out against all odds to vanquish evil and destroy the root of all evils along with his friends (disciples?)... all rise... a reading from the third book of jk rowling, the prisoner of azkaban, chapter 16, lines 43 to 117.... heh heh heh... pardon me while i fall out of my chair laughing at the most ultimate sign of human gullibility and stupidity - religion... heh heh heh... dumbasses.....

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