Don't hurt the monkey!

Listening to : velvet revolver - slither (this song rocks!!!)

its been a while... not many goin ons in these parts... work sucks as always... life sucks - period... been really moody over the past few days... i have a feeling i need to see a shrink or something... prozac be-eth my mana... this guy at work... robin... he told me to take a break and look into myself... he said i have issued/demons i need to clear.... i know that.... always man... thing is i dont know how to go about it... i miss life... i miss the normality thats present in the plain and the mediocre.... i miss the old me... the me that never used to think... i was happier as a moron... once i start thinking i get really depressed.... sometimes im scared... sometimes im angry.... seriously wish i could get a real job... will be teaching karate at mama's school in the summer... will get some cash but i dont think ill use it on myself (bye bye guitar...)... ill give it to my folks they need it more than me right now.... pay the bills and stuff... life is shitty.... been listening to dave matthews'ravedigger a lot too.... its an awesome song... very real.... thing is... i hate it all... didnt go to work today cos i slept til 12 in the afternoon... i was awake til 4 last nite... look at me... its 1:40 and im still awake... its not just that... i aint interested in workin at the workshop anymore... atleast if i was paid something?... what the heck... i believe intensity leads to drain... lets think of thing lighter... shits light, right?... i aint makin sense... think ill go...fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck ... aaaaaaaaaah yes.... what a relief....

ps: all blogger sites are unblocked again... maybe big brother does read the email i send them?...hmmm....