RRRRRRRIP!!!!

Feeling :
Listening to : aerosmith - back back train

bland as hell... im bored so much that im reading homer's "the odyssey"... i aint some mega nerd guy but the book is good... funny incident at music class today... this guy sitting next to me farts!!... god was it loud... ive never heard a fart that fucking loud in my life... it was like "RRRRRRIP!!!!!"... i was loke "OH MY GOD!!"... he goes "sorry" and walks out.... dude, you wanna fart - get your ass to a bathroom or something... dont fart next to me... i mean "RRRRRRIP!!!"... thats way too much.... went over to t's place after that... thankachen unc. and fly goin to egypt tomorrow... they be goin for a week.... went over to say bon voyage...

chatted with arun and sure for about 2 - 3 hrs last nite...

i learnt the guitaring for the new lenny kravitz song "where are we runnin'"... its an awesome track... got a few songs from the new aerosmith album... theyre awesome... truly... its old school blues... think classic aerosmith... (pre walk this way with run dmc)... its the real deal... its very raw and dirty.... real blues.... love it.... back back train is my fave so far.... its all good... "the grind" is the only song in the album that isnt a cover... its a true to the bone aerosmith track with all the elements of an aerosmith-ian ballad but they still manage to fit it into the flow of a true blues album... awesome stuff... gotto go ppl... peace all... RRRRRRRIP!!!

The Insightful Linguist

Feeling : ok
Listening to : tori amos - siren

i did this iq test at tickle.com and my iq is 127... i aint retarted!!!!!.... anyway this is what they said....

"Congratulations, Avinash!
Your IQ score is 127

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Classic IQ test. Your IQ score is scientifically accurate; to read more about the science behind our IQ test, click here.

During the test, you answered four different types of questions — mathematical, visual-spatial, linguistic and logical. We analyzed how you did on those questions, which reveals the way your brain uniquely works.

We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is an Insightful Linguist.

This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results. "

i may not be the smartest but i aint stupid... cheers excretors

removing comments for a while

ill be removing my comment system for a while... there was a glitch in there somewhere... will be back soon... empathy all - avi

rest as ash in a landfill little reptiles....

Feeling : blue
Listening to : string quartet tribute to TOOL - sober

had the most horrible week... both of my tortoises died in a span of 3 days... was really depressed after that... they got some disease... their shells became soft and then their lower shells start bruising and they stop eating and poof... they die.... cant help but think its my fault... maybe they werent getting enough nutrition or something... or maybe the got parasites... called up the vet clinic and they said they cant do wack unless i take em there... a checkup costs like 200 riyalls out here... plus there are no cheaper or free clinics here... i tried my own medication on scratch (confucious died first)... i tries giving it tiny doses of paracetamol and milk for calcium... maybe it ODed on panadol thanks to me or something... the ending is the worst part... i unceremoniously dumped them in a dumpster... i guess you could say i had them cremated... i lost one of my rings yesterday... the one that says "om mane pedme" (thats a tibetian chant to buddha)... the only good thing happening right now is me starting to go to the gym again... this time its another place but i still feel kinda guilty cos its like 200 bucks a month and right now...thats hard to come by (my dad is unemployed right now)... but this place is good... its run by an ex-mr india... the facilities are good... i go for 2 - 3 hrs a day... im controlling what i eat, i walk to the place, et al... im woking hard... if i dont lose weight this time- theres nothing i havent tried...

passions and gyms and grease

Feeling : contemplative
Listening to : meshuggah - the mouth licking what you've bled

watched "the passion of the christ" today at bala uncs place... agreed it aint a cinema or anything but it was a pirated VCD, the copy wasnt all too bad.... there was quite a few of us there... it was awesome... i am (what i personally prefer calling myself) a passive christian... most of my beliefs are kinda zennist.. good and bad karma, energies, integrity of one with their surroundings... but jesus was a good leader... he had the charisma to pull of something as good as starting a new religion... the movie was made really well... kudos to mel gibson... very graphic but truly touching.... the flashbacks were placed at the exact times such that they were relevant and not bothersome to the flow of the story... but according to me the best idea in the whole movie was the image of satan... their idea of making satan a hairless female with a masculine voice is awesome... (as mama said - satan looks like marilyn manson! heh heh heh) the androgenous face (thanks to there being no facial hair) mixed with the very non human (almost gollum-esque) voice made their version of satan really spooky... the only thing i did not understand in the movie was the child (of gollum??? :D) satan was holding in one of the scenes when jesus falls down and looks at satans direction... what did the child signify?... was it the irony of maddona?... or was it perhaps symbolic of the mass over which satan had control at that time?... or was it to show that the people whom jesus was saving (shown by the child... the purest of humans) turning onto him (thus the ugliness of the child as it smiles mockingly at jesus)... awesome flick... you cant say that the movie breeds anti-semitic hatred cos all pics if this type has that message... and if some x-tians get hyped up by this pic then they're as bad as the islamic radicalists whom they blame for anything bad in this world... shall start goin to a gym from tomorrow... will be working in the workshop only till the afternoon... YIPPEEEEEE!!!... i wont be a greasy bastard no more!

Angel of Grunge

Feeling : sad
Listening to : nirvana - come as you are

flying high above everything
he looks down on us
pain, happiness, anger, confusion
all but an illusion
be receptive, vocalize
respect.... you are not forgotten

Rest in piece kurt...

Hello when I'm crashing

Feeling : happily lonely
Listening to : john frusciante - song to sing when i'm lonely

went to this cultural program thingy a few days back... it was the crappiest thing i ever went for.... i swear im never goin to one of those places again...it was horrible... the place was filled with no-brained, gay-looking, bollywood-wannabe types staring at the girls like a bunch of pervs...one of them were even wearing shades at 11 in the night!!!!... i told mama its gonna be crappy but nooooo.... i had to go... it'll be good she sez... blech!... oh yeah... this kid - shedda... like 10 or something... she takes me away from the crowd saying she wants to ask me something... i was bored anyway so i said ok... she takes me to one side and makes me promise ill tell the truth... i was hesitant but i said ok... then shes like "avi chettan, do you have a girlfriend?" ("chettan" is mallu for bro... like how the japs say "san")... i said no... then she looks at me funny and asks me why... i say something like... "dunno... maybe coz i look like an ape... plus nobody my type"... then shes asks me how old i am and i tell her.. then she tells me that i should be having a girlfriend and that i should do it asap... it was funny actually... a little ten yr old telling me tha facts of life... she even asked me to tie my hair... kids are awesome... very receptive... call me crazy but i prefer small talk with a little kid to any damn conversation with an adult (excepting a few)... kids understand... they care too... i always tell ppl that kids are the realest things around... always true... it was real sweet of her actually... but later on i got to thinking... she was right you know... im almost 20 and im single...

change of topic before everyone (theres max 2 ppl other than me who reads this blog) falls into the pits of lonesome misery...

i went to the doc yesterday... been having this ear ache for the past few days... only when i chew mind you... hearing and stuff perfect... just the pain... i went to an ent at a local hospital and he says it might be calciferation (??? dont remember the word... building up of calcium) in one of the bones behind my ear and one of the nerves back there might be getting crushed each time i bite down...thus causing the pain... he said it usually happens to "stout and muscular young males" like me!!!... man was i happy... im stout and muscular... the doc asked me if i go to the gym... i say no and he says i look kinda powerful!!... either the doc needs to change his glasses or hes extremely gay or...... im really muscular looking under the tons of blubber that im storing for the next ice-age... he gets all philosophical on me and says that im a very free thinking person... he says the beard and the hair is good because it shows a that subconscously im a very open person... very free and receptive to feelings and emotions... i was thinking "cool doc"... then he tells me that i gotta take an x-ray and a blood test... i go for the blood test and it was routine stuff... the x-ray part is cool... you know when a person is scared right?... you can feel it... the nurse at the x-ray lab looked like she saw a ghost when i walked in... her expression was hilarious... she stutters something like "ill be back" and leaves in a hurry... then she comes back with a male nurse and asks him to stay in the room in malayalam... both the nurses were mallus and they didnt know that i was one too :D... shes tells the male nurse to just stand by and also says some comment on me looking like some trouble-maker... she asks me to lie down on the table and she tells me to bend my neck downwards as much as possible... i do it and shes like little bit more... i say i cant and she comes over and gently tries to push my head down... honestly my neck was maxed out so it didnt bend anymore... i tell her that and i couldnt help but smile... damn sad... she looked even more scared... musta thought i was some sorta psycho serial killer or something... she moves back and fiddles with the instruments and on her way back she trips on my boots and almost fell... i was like "sorry bout that" and she just looks at me funny while i grin loke a loony... the whole time she was scared of me... heh heh heh... got that over with... i thanked the nurse and gave her my million $ smile... after i got the results the doc says i dont have a calcium build up... but theres an inflamation of tissue there... i get medicines and here i am... alive and kicking... gotta go back in a week...

the songs from the new frusciante is awesome... ive downloaded 3 songs from "shadows collide with ppl" (eat shit RIAA... you cant touch me... im not under your jurisdiction... butt-munchers!! bwahahahahahahahaaa!!!)... agreed its totally different... the older songs were pure in its own way... the recording quality was bad but the songs were awesome... from "shadows..." ive got "this cold", "second walk" and "song to sing when im lonely"... beautiful... my fave so far is "song to sing...", with this album is that frusciantes carved himself a niche in rockland forever... chad and flea from the peppers play rhythm in this album... and the digital work in these songs are just right... not too much, not too little... gotta get myself the whole album...


Song to sing when I'm lonely by john frusciante

(from "Shadows Collide With People", 2004)

A song to play when I'm lonely
Win and never play a game again
No one to face when I'm falling
Holding tight to dreams that never end
I'll be you
I do
I'll be you
No one's afraid to be called by another name
No one dares to be put down where they don't belong
Nowhere's anyones reason
Everything dying and leaving
Out with these faults and you make me a baby
Faking a movement by no ones seeing it
No one always finds peace flung
No one chooses to beat my pride down
Symbols pierce right through me
People fail to be drawn up
Sunlight to fate accumulates
Loving pain to be clung to
By luminous bodies
Only waiting for long signs to be wrong
And true to us
Out of place in my own time
Drowning thinking that I'm dry
Holding on to facts that'll never be proven
Faking an action cuz no one's looking
Hello when I'm crashing
Feeling nothing when my life's flashing before my eyes
You should've threw me down
Is the content so much
You should've threw me down
Is the content so much
You should've threw me down
Is the content so much
You should've threw me down
Is the content so much