A walk through downtown Tampa.

i am not a bird!

sound : Rising 06.06.06 - Lustmord

awake.... i dream daily, non-stop, forever.... i need release.... so much i want to do... so much to say... so much to accomplish.... i have no motivation, no confidence.... i feel numb...

it's not so much of me not having things to do... it's more because i have to "do".... thats the thing... i feel like i have sold out..... i have a routine to follow... i can't just up and leave if i want to.... i have bills to pay, commitments to fulfill.... i am not a bird.... i am not a bird!....

perhaps the secret to finding my joy in things is the hermits' way.... maybe i should let go of all things materialistic and join an ashram.... meditate on a single idea for a few years... maybe then i'll understand what's going on with the universe (as i know it)....

unenthused i leave you now.... adieu...

Helena

- Misfits

If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs
Would you still love me anyway?
If you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed
Would you still love me anyway?

Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?

If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs
Would you still love me anyway?
If you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed
Would you still love me anyway?

Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?

Cutting with the knife, blood is spilling everywhere
She will be my wife,
Secondary spine.
Incisions must be accurate,
I know just what to do.
My hands are trembling,
I can't spare to slip up with this knife!

Her beauty so illogical,
The beast come gliding in.
Hideous chameleon stripped down to her skin.
Dance to the burning flame,
Pleasure exhumes the pain.
The night bursts into flame!

Dance Helena!... Dance!

If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs
Would you still love me anyway?
There's a spot on the floor where your limbs used to be
And I close the door on my fantasies...

Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?...