Rob Gordon moment # 63

sound : Dying Song - John Frusciante

i feel like watching movies.... not a movie... i want to watch movies.... i'm feeling a hunger for existentialist/absurdist/complex erotic/depressing flicks.... language doesn't really matter actually... i just want some mood movies to sink into.... i've kinda compiled a list (like i dont do that much huh?.. the rob gordon in me is awake...) and some of these movies i've already seen.... but some of these i really want to see just because it was done by people i admire and ive read plenty of good and bad things about them.... and sometimes the bad reviews are the ones that make me want to listen to a certain album or watch a certain movie..... here's the list....

Y Tu Mama Tambien
The Brown Bunny
Buffalo 66
Sex and Lucia
Romance
Frivolous Lola
9 Songs
24 Hour Party People
Control
I'm Not There
Stroszek
Into the Wild
The Darjeeling Limited
High Fidelity
Lars and the Rreal Girl

This amorous feeling.....

sound : Did You Ever Look So Nice - The Samples

This unending feeling of loneliness is fake.... even if the people i love are far away i know that they care... and i care too....

i may not have seen somebody for a few days/months/years.... that's ok... that's just how life deals its cards... we play our hand and hope for the best.... school, work and money are unimportant.... all that really matters is love....

this may seem like oe of the usual depressing posts but it isn't... i am actually celebrating the fact that even though i live a life of constant let-down there are people who can put a smile on my face just by saying "hello!"

all my life i've had friends take care of me.... even now... those friends are the ones i'm most grateful for, because without them i'd be drowned in a huge pile of shit...

to each and every one of my friends, wherever you are... i love you...

:)

that is all...

"Superstar"

(Performed by Sonic Youth, Written by the Carpenters)

Long ago
and oh so far away
I fell in love with you
before the second show
your guitar
it sounds so sweet and clear
but you're not really there
it's just the radio

don't you remember you told me you love me baby
you said you'd be coming back this way again baby
baby baby baby baby oh baby
I love you, I really do

loneliness, is such a sad affair
and I can hardly wait
to be with you again
what to say
to make you come again
come back to me again
and play your sad guitar

don't you remember you told me you love me baby
you said you'd be coming back this way again baby
baby baby baby baby oh baby
I love you, I really do

don't you remember you told me you love me baby
you said you'd be coming back this way again baby
baby baby baby baby oh baby
I love you, I really do...

"Somewhere over the Rainbow" - Israel Kamakawiwo' Ole

I love being woken up by the person I'm dreaming of.

Heima - Sigur Rós

watch it in full-screen...

Juno was an oddly great movie...

sound : A Well Respected man - The Kinks

i loved it....

Life Lesson #6456

sound : Behold the Tragedy of St. Ignatius - GOD

Today I learned that, contrary to popular belief, shopping does not help you feel happier.... Especially when you don't have money for it....

drone/dooom, man PMS, desert blues, school and new wave...

sound : Tallahassee - EARTH

Here we go again... me and my fuckin' sob story... that's all i seem to do on this thing..... that may be the only reason i still have this thing is to rant and rave when shit hits the fan....

i feel like i'm being stabbed... in the back... and if anybody complains about my grammar or punctuation (or the lack thereof) can kiss my ass... i really don't give a fuck... i'm here to work out some aggression....

i've got to find some way to flip this switch... i have so much pent up inside me but no way to get a release... i hate this frustrated trapped feeling..... damn this thing.....

I'm thinking about restarting my GOD musical project... although with a little change.... i'm actually thinkin of a droney stoner metal doom thing... i don't know... lets see how that goes....

i feel like i have wasted potential... ideas are swimming around in my head like sperm, drawings i can't sketch, melodies i can't transcribe to actual music, words i9 can't put to lyrics and sentences that arent prose.... plus school.... i find it such a waste of time.... i can't stand school anymore..... i'm too fuckin' old for this shit.... thankfully i'll be done with this garbage next semester...

now playing: untitled - interpol

i love how gloomy interpol is.... not as gloomy or wrist slashingly depressing as joy division but close enough..... lot's of new wave and doom in my playlists now.... kinda reflective of my mood i guess..... yeah.... the mary onettes (like marionettes!!!).... love them... they're cool...

now playing: Cler Achel - Tinariwen

i am man PMS-ing like a mofo.... sadly i have to fuckin' take care of everyone around me before i can say a thing.... agreed i've done this my whole life but shit's starting to stink....

my vivid dreams are back.... i've had this dream about heather, my brother and i being at the beach atleast twice now.... i've been having dreams or arun moving down from canada.... on of those dreams i can't forget though..... something about the two of us renting a house in orlando or something... it was cool...

now playing: pleasure songs - the mary onettes (!!!!)

i need to get out of this funk... i wonder what i'll do about it?... everything pisses me off right now...... oh well... i think i'll stop now.... it's almost 4 in the morning and i'm wide awake.... my allergies have kicked in hardcore and i can't breathe lying down..... tonight sucks!....